Life With a Rewind Button

Sometimes I wish life had a rewind button. If something happened you didn't like you could just hit rewind and do it again! No regrets, no mistakes... No Worries! If I said something or did something I didn't like... I would rewind it and make sure the moment was perfect every time! But until I find that remote to help me out, I am stuck living from life's mistakes, regrets, mishaps or anything else in life I don't like! I wonder what would be different had I not gone to Boston? What if I would have stayed? What if I would have acted different with past girls I dated? Would I have found the one? What if I would have worked harder at a job, or in school? Would I have more money? There are many things I look back over the past few years and am 100% sure I did right. I'm glad I went on a mission, everything I am today stems from that time there! The only reason I would go back is to do the same thing all over again! But there are other things I'm not so sure about! Some minor what ifs, but some are larger, harder to forget what ifs. Its hard to look back see events or decisions that may, or may not have hindered the present! Was I better off with the decisions I made? Or were there larger decisions that I am oblivious to that would have changed my life?

But I cant change the past. Whats done is done! What I can do is take the most from every situation, good or bad, then on top of it learn from it. Don't make the same mistakes twice, and get the most out of every situation possible to make myself the better person for the future! There is no way to know the full effects of a particular decision before it happens. We just have to do what we think is right, and pray as much as we can that the decision was the best for us! Maybe if I kept a job longer I would have more money, but maybe with that money comes a job I'm not happy in. Maybe I pressured a girl a little to much to like me... But maybe being with that girl would have made me less happy then not having her! There are always 2 sides to every story and impossible to know if yours was the right one. From here on out, I'm not looking back with regret, I'm not going to wonder! There is not going to be a wrong side, just the side I chose! Cause having to learn from past mistakes makes me realize that when I am always looking behind me seeing what could have been... I am missing the beauty in front of me and what is to come! Life is what we make of it. The only bad decision is the one we decide to not learn from. Walk as if you have a destination to get to, not a place your running from. Cause if your always running from whats behind you. You will end up missing the destination!

The Roller Coaster We Call Life

Sometimes I like to look at life as a rollercoaster. It has its up and downs, parts that are thrilling, boring and parts that grow excitement for the rest of the ride! But there is always one part that is always constant throughout my life... Before you can go up you have to go down.

Just like a roller coaster before you can go back up the hill you have to go down to gain the speed needed to make it to the top! In sports its the hardest losses and disappointments that motivate you to become better, to work harder and become great! In life its the lows that help you get the faith and desire to get back up that hill. The problem is with roller coasters its simple physics that brings it back up, but in life you have to work a little harder to get back up, and that isn't always easy to do. I know that in order for me to appreciate and have the good times I have to work through those hard times, but even with that knowledge it seems to get harder and harder every time.

When I was wrestling in High School there was a point where I almost gave up, I was coming to practice every day, getting my butt kicked by better wrestlers with more experience, getting yelled at for not being able to run fast enough and it was pure hell! At the time the work did not seem worth the reward! The hell i was going through 2 times a day, 4 times a day all for 8 min of wrestling during the week and 20-30 min on the weekends! One point I told myself I was done! Its not worth it!... But I didn't quit! With encouragement from my parents, coaches and friends I came back! It was that low that made me work harder, if I was going through hell I was going to start winning and make it worth it! I grew a large desire to come back the next year and be a wrestler that people knew! Not as a simple win but they worry about wrestling me! Over the next 2 years with hard work and dedication I worked my way up to #4 in my weight in all of Utah and the highlight of my senior year when I beat a wrestler that was ranked 7th in the Nation! I didn't ever take state! But with the limited experience that i had in wrestling I became a known wrestler and exceeded the expectations I should have met!

Those experience help me to realize I need to keep strong and need to keep going, that soon enough the roller coaster will come back up! Its my friends and family that help me down the hill so when its time to go back up I have what it takes to make it! I have overcome many hills in my life... But it also seems that every hill I need to overcome gets bigger and bigger! Im not worried about falling off the roller coaster... But there is a side of me that worries how big the next one will be, or when i can get a quick break in between! Or when I will overcome the large hills that I don't have complete control over! But I realize that in my life, there will be a up... The hills will be over come, and eventually I will be back on top! That I need to enjoy it cause soon enough I will be going back down! But I also know that in life, just like in wrestling, if I stick it out, if I work all the way through, even if its hell during... That in the end I will exceed expectations, and that the real joy from the journey will begin!

The Weekend of Firsts

John Denver was once quoted in one of his songs saying... "Thank God I'm a country boy!"

Well I'm here to tell you, that John Denver was full of sh**!

This weekend was a get away weekend for me. Needless to say I had a very bad week, Brandt called me and said that I was gonna come down with him to Mt Pleasant with him to go to our friends sky house for the weekend. Now those of you that do not know, Mt Pleasant is just down the street from Ephraim, where I went to school for one year before my mission. To keep it short and simple.. I hate that town! So I was not really wanting to go. And honestly I was not in much of a mood at all to go out! I told him no a few times but he was a stubborn sucker and told me I was going and I better be ready when I get there! So I did just what my #1 told me to do! It ended up being a week of many firsts for me!

I ended up going down with Brandt, Kendall, Whitney and Sky!



The first night we went to the drive in movies... Kendall's truck defiantly was not a drive in truck... and we could not hear any of the sounds. But it looked good! :-) It was a great night.. we just chilled and talked and played! It was a great thing for me to just get away from the worries and have some stress free fun with great friends... I will say though... That night thanks to me there were 3 very happy girls!! 1 of them was double happy! ;-)

To this point I was starting to understand where Mr Denver was coming from. While I would not like to spend my life in the country it was nice to just get away! But my weekend of firsts was not quite finished.

Saturday we went down to Fairview (which is another hole in Utah) to ride horses! This was the FIRST time I had ever been on a horse!




It ended up being one of the funnest things I have done in awhile... But it didn't start off that way. When we got to Fairview we went to this little arena thing. They started assigning us horses. I was the last one to be assigned. They told me to hop on, so I did. I then continued how to work this thing and they told me to give it a gentle tap in the side to go... So I did! Laffy Taffy (that's the horses name) started to walk. I was thinking inside, "yeah! I can do this its no so hard.." And just then Laffy Taffy wanted to catch up to the other horses and started going faster... and faster.... and faster... and faster! Soon enough it was off! I didn't know what to do, how to control this animal that was 5 times my size, or how to get it to stop. As it approached the group the other horses, that had people on them, started scattering a bit. And everyone had to control their horses! I didn't know what to do and honestly i thought I was in big trouble. Laffy Taffy was not slowing down. All of a sudden i herd sky say, pull back on the ropes!!! So I did and finally got her under control with no damage done to myself! But after that bad incident they decided to put me on the horse called Angel... and mainly cause she was a angel. It was the horse that little girls rode their first times, cause she is so calm. And even if it was 1 step above a pony.. You know what I just had a life threatening moment and was happy to take Angel. Then we continued to ride the horses for about a hour or so, it started hailing, raining. But it was still a blast!

Then later that night we hit up the Hot Pots out there! They are naturally warmed water pots that didn't smell like sulfur! It was real nice and relaxing! It was a great weekend... A weekend I really needed... A weekend of first

First drive in movie with girls, first kisses, first 17 year older, first 40 year older, first time on a horse, first time almost getting killed by a horse, first time to the hot pots. And first time in a long time I was able to get out with my best friends and have a great time! Thank you all that were there! It was a blast!

The Utah Return

Once again i go months without a entry... Last time I wrote i was livin it up in Boston for work. I was out there with some good people and had lots of fun times. While i was out there there were a few highlights that are Turpy-World worthy... If you are reading this on Facebook... Be sure ti visit Turpy-World (http://www.turpyworld.blogspot.com) for the videos that facebook removes.

The Celtics/Magic Game 6

We got tickets to go see the 6th game of the Orlando Magic and Boston Celtics... Even though i am a avid Utah Jazz fan and would never support a team over the Jazz. I am a NBA fan in whole, and i love going to any sports events! The game itself was a complete blow out and the Magic dominated, but it was a great experience. I got to see the Boston Garden!

Possibly the coolest thing happened to me this year was at the game though! All my life i have tried to get on the jumbotron at the Jazz games. I have tried many signs, face paint... I have done it all and have been unseccessfull! As we were sitting there at the Celtics game all of a sudden a guy walked out with a camera... What was this camera for? Was it a stadium camera? TNT? Regardless of why it was there, there was one thing for sure! I was gonna try and get him to film me. Carson and I stood up yelling and screaming! He was going side to side looking for the perfect combination of enthusiasm, and beauty. All of a sudden everything just fell perfectly into place. The music started playing! And it was a perfect song! Carson and I synchronized out dance moves and before we knew it we were picked with the perfect combination. We did it! We were on the jumbotron. And it wasn't like "oh look there is Brandon in the back... if you squint!" No the whole jumbotron was taken by Carson and I! It was like a life long goal that i had accomplished

The other great event on Boston was 1 weekend I had Brittney come visit me. We went around and did tourist things and i got to see all the fun, cool parts of Boston.

Thefirst thing we did, before even going back to the apartment, was go on the Duck Tour. This was a WWII vehicle that looks like a boat... probably cause it is.

It drives on land but can also go right into the water as a boat. We went around and saw a few cool places and herd a lot about the history of Boston. Then we dipped in the water for a tour on the water. Our tour guide was Sven the Viking! He was a tool! Brittney and I were the last ones on the Duck so we were stuck in the very front right next to Sven. He came on the vehicle wearing a viking hat, tight shirt, and a wool skirt that made it half way to his knees.. This man was not a man that can say he was in shape either! Right as he comes on the first thing he does is check all the safety features... Unfortunately for us it just happened to be right in front of us... On the ground so he had to bend over! His butt was within inside voice distance... And i know she wont admit it, but i cought Britt taking a peek! ;-)

After we got off the Duck tour it started pouring rain! Rain so hard that we had nowhere to hide from it. It felt like each drop was 2 inches in diameter and we were blocks from out car. We ran all the way to the mall to get cover, but by that time we were soaked to the bone. As we walked through the mall we noticed a abundance of weird people dressed up like it was Halloween! With neon hair, swards, capes, bunny ears, you name it, and it was there! We were baffled on the reason why so many people were like this. As we were looking for a exit we stumbled across a convention center that was full of hundreds of these weirdos.. All dressed up so weird! As we walked we noticed that we had entered the Anime Convention. They were everywhere! I couldn't help but take a video of these people! And the sick thing is most were wearing outfits that i would not recommend! Big girls in mini skirts, white pale guys with pot guts in a belly shirt! We could not help but laugh as they passed us. And they couldn't help but notice that we were laughing at them! :)

Fire And Ice

Later that night we went out to eat at a place called Fire and Ice. This place was the bomb. You go in and it is a all you can eat style restaurant. There are tables of veggies, meats, sea food, salads and flavors. You get a bowl, go get all the food you can fit in it. Once you fill it up you get any flavors you may want and take it over to a huge grill that is positioned in the middle of the restaurant. They take your food and place it on the grill and grill it all right in front of you, then they place it on a plate and you eat! The great thing is you can go back as many times as you want! And it isn't cheep chuck a rama food! They has shrimp, crab legs, steak... Good food! And all that for just $14 a person. I decided to top the dinner off with a nice Italian Lemonade... Little did i know that the main ingredient was liquor!

About a week after that I had made the decision to come back to Utah. I felt really bad letting down my good friends out there. I was out there with my college room mate John Gay! And my manager Malko it was very hard to tell them that i was coming home. It was mainly for personal reasons. When i was out there i did good and was selling OK! But over time i had lost my motivation and selling was getting harder and harder to motivate myself to do. And since i was confident that i could come back and find a good job i decided to make the county side trip again back to Utah.

I left Monday morning about 3pm EST (5pm MST) and drove for 11 hours strait till 2am EST (4am MST) i slept that night until 8am EST (10am MST) and went to the gas station to fill my car up. I went in the bathroom and gave myself a quick wash, washing the important things to avoid being dirty (face, hands, pits, and even feet) then hit the road again driving this time till 3am EST (5am MST) 18 strait hours stopping only for gas! I slept for 3 hours and then finished the trip the rest of the 7 hours home to old Utah.

There are many things that happen to the human mind being alone all that time.. the following video is a demonstration of just the type of games your mind can start to play on you.. and did play on my on a regular basis durring the drive home! :)

It is good to be back, there were many things i missed, but for those of you out in Boston i do miss you a lot! I regret that we were never able to hit the clubs.. although we defiantly did try many times before!

I am happy with where things are right now. I am confident and positive that the decision to return was the right one, even though it was a very tough decision to make!

For now I look forward to hang out with those of you that went through Turpy withdrawals while i was gone.. I have seen a few and apologize that i can not see you all in the same night! But don't worry! You are on the list and you will get your Turpy-Time soon enough!