Over the past week or so I have realized something in my life... How ungreatfull I really am for my family! Not that I dont appreciate them, or that I treat them badly! But when everything possible in your life goes wrong, there is always someone there you can count on! And when it comes down to it, they are the only ones that truly are there for me! I have a lot of good friends that I know are there to support me and help me. But usually its a conditional help, which is still very appreciated and without it I could not live! No matter how many dumb things I do, no matter if its my fault or not! No one will put themselves on the line, physically, emotionally or financially, the way they do for me! I do have the best family in the world and wouldn't change them for anything.
The past week has been a week of trials and hardships, in many ways has made me feel empty, but in many ways has build me up to be a better man. I know when everything is all done with, the lessons I have learned the past few months, and especially this week, will make me a much better person for the future.
I don't want anyone to think I don't have good friends! I do, that help me all the time and I am greatfull for them. I have made a goal to surround myself more with those friends and friends like them.
I believe a good friend is someone who is always on your side, who is there for you when you need it! They dont have to give you everything they have or go out of their way for you, they dont have to be perfect, but to know that they are there and not have to worry what they will act differently than they portray to you. Im not saying I have been the best friend all the time, and I continue to try to be a better person, brother, son and friend. I apologize to anyone that doesn't think im a good friend and know I would never purposely set out with the intent to hurt anyone or talk bad about them!
As the new year comes around, its a perfect time to change who I am, change who I associate with and what I will do in the future with my life. We walk the path that we pave for ourselves, we have no one to blame but ourselves for hardships. If we pave that path with things that will not make us happy in the future, eventually were gonna catch up to that part of the path and have to go through it. My goal is to pave myself with gratitude, good friends, family and a good future. Any tough time I have had recently did not come from no where, there were things I did to pave that in my path that I finally cough up to me! Luckly I have had good company to get me over the bumps in the path, where some dont!
And lastly I am sorry to anyone that may think I did something mean or wrong to them. Know that I would never hurt any friends on purpose. But this has also shown me just how important it is to have friends that treat you well and respect you and really want to be friends with you! Thank you for everyone who has been there for me I do have the best friends and family once all the weeds are taken out!
