These past few weeks i have been.... well thinking a lot about everything... Im in a stage in my life that things are changing! The things that year(s) ago were fun, no longer are.. I feel a little old! Sometimes I prefer to sit and watch a movie then go out! Im in a stage where my future career is more important than ever before! And while i make good money right now, is my job a dependable job for the future with advancement?... NO! I need to go back to school but things keep coming up and I put it off for "one more semester" And i have done alot of thinking! I have made certian goals and plans for the near future with career and school! But recently have become very greatfull for my family and friends! I have alot of great friends and family that put up with all the dumb things i do! I have great room mates right now that keep me entertained! And i love hanging out with them. And all my friends that i have had for years now... I have had alot of friends come and go. I love making new friends and hate loosing friends, But i really am thankfull for the friends that stick with me through the years! The ones i can depend on that i know are there for me, even if they give me crap at times.
And my family... I dont know where i would be without them.... My brother just recently left on his mission for Mexico! And while i sat through the MTC and knew he would be gone, knew that for 2 years i would not see him i never really thought too much about it! This weekend I went to St George for a softball tourny... I had alot of my friends there, and my fam. And all weekend everything that i did i missed my little bro! The little things that i didnt realize! Family games were not the same! And while i Love my sisters and they are the best in the word my brother was differnet then us... more serious, less of a goof, and sometimes quiet! And while it was him.. It were those things that i missed! I missed having someone that looked up to me! Someone that I tried to set a good example for cause i knew he was watching. His sence of humor that somethings was confusing but other times made us roll!! It really make me realize this weekend how much i love my family! Do i go home and visit them enough? When my mom calls to chat do I push her off the phone too soon? Am I a good son and brother? Just more things on top of the other things i have been thinking of recently!
I cant say i am a perfect son, brother or friend! I try to be! I try to be there for my friends and family! Some times it is hard! Sometimes its just easier to be selfish and let little things get in the way! I want to 2 people that may see this and everyone that never will that i am thankfull for all everyone does for me! And i hope i can be a better person for everyone! I really appreciate all you do for me!!
